Thanksgiving is a hectic holiday for us.
We start by running in the Thanksgiving Day Race. We then rush home to take showers in the ONE shower that is operational in my house. We then rush to have lunch with my side of the family. A couple of hours later, we drive to have dinner with Ray’s side of the family. And sometime later in the evening, we finally drive home.
In the midst of all this hurried activity I smile and hug and have small conversations with family all the while thinking about the million other things I need to do that weekend.
This Thanksgiving was no different. Until I learned that my Aunt Connie unexpectedly passed away a couple of weeks after at the age of 66.
I saw her there. I briefly talked to her. She seemed fine.
But obviously she wasn’t and now she is gone. Upon receiving the news of her death, I kept saying to myself over and over, “But I just saw her and she seemed fine.” And I regretted not talking to her more.
Her passing has made me reflect on how I have been living my life.
2018 was a tough year. I struggled with growing my mindset and I often found myself stuck in my victimhood thinking. I experienced anxiety as I have never experienced it before. I thought about quitting on things over and over and over.
And because of all of this negativity I constantly entertained, I didn’t see all the good stuff. I didn’t create opportunities to make memories.
My biggest lesson from 2018 is to live intentionally. This year I am focusing on my health, on making connections with people, and feeling more gratitude.
I am going to intentionally grow my mindset, my businesses, my spirituality, my friendships, my relationships, and my hair!
The second biggest lesson I learned this year came when my mom asked each of the families (I am the oldest of 5 kids) at Christmas to create a photobook of our families.
In years past, this would have been right up my alley. I would have reveled in creating just such a gift, but not this year. I really didn’t document our lives very well in 2018. Nor my own. Nor did I intentionally create opportunities/experiences/memories to document.
This year, I am going to take more pictures and do more things with those I love. I am going to write and share more.
Of course, I want more abundance in 2019, but this year, I want more than just financial abundance. I want to feel FULL and complete when it’s time to say good-bye to 2019.